Just Say it Out Loud.....No Matter How Ugly It Is!

(This is my ugliest picture....it's a picture of my parents spooky house this last Halloween. My brother in-law dressed up to scare all the kids. It's not a super high quality photo but doesn't the blur just add to the scariness?)

Sadly it's true....I'm getting older. I feel like I spent my childhood always wanting to move to the next step. When I was twelve I could stay up longer. When I was thirteen I could pierce my ears and wear makeup. When I was 15 I would go to high school where all the cool people were. When I was sixteen I would be able to drive, etc.
Now that I am an adult I have decided not to live in the future anymore. I have found that life is so much better when I take each day as it comes. It has taken me a long time to come to this conclusion but I think I am finally there. Although, it would be nice to be done with this last math class :)!!!

Many of you know that Paul and I have been seeing a doctor for infertility. I'm a pretty private person so I like to keep my personal life to myself. This last week I found a blog that is written by a chain of fertility clinics. As I read stories about other women I felt like it would be good for me to say it out loud. So here I am....I assure you, this post is not about me complaining. I would never give up these few years I have had to become closer to my Heavenly Father and his Son Jesus Christ. I would never give up the relationship that Paul and I have developed through just being there for each other. And lastly, I would never give up the time I have had to truly find myself through going to the temple every week with my parents.
Today was my first time seeing a fertility specialist. I was a little nervous for obvious reasons. I knew it would just be more poking and prodding. I was right, but I also received more answers and Paul and I walked away with a little more we can grab onto . I would be lying if I said that I wasn't scared, but when has that ever stopped me from doing something.
I'm sure all of us are a little scared when walking into something new. So here I go....wish me luck!
And I wish you good luck in all the new things you will experience this week!

Trick or Treat

Fall is my favorite time of the year (ahhem....a close second to the summer). I love how it's not too hot and it's not too cold. For the first time I noticed that their is a smell that accompanies fall. Last year I was in Texas and the seasons are little different over there. Fall doesn't creep up on you as fast as it does here. So the past couple weeks as I whizzed past the changing leaves, and the Halloween decorations on my bike I started to notice that familiar smell that comes with fall. I guess I just never paid attention before.

I was pretty surprised when Paul came home from school about a week ago and asked me what he should be for Halloween. I gave him a few suggestions and it didn't take him to long to decide on this one. I tried to get him to be Prince Charming but I'm pretty sure he's the best looking Paul Bunyan around!

I think I'm going to see if I can get hired at Disney. My sister gave me the last minute inspiration to be Cinderella. I think my nieces would be proud!

This year my family decided to have their first Halloween party...it was a huge success! Yay for new traditions! For some of us it was our first time carving with a pattern....which can be a lot more difficult than it looks.
I'm pretty proud of Paul's pumpkin. He was instructed at a very young age at The Kendall School of Pumpkin Art. They taught him to master the art of pumpkin carving. I'm kind of jealous of his skills!