At times in my life I have felt like my prayers have gone unanswered. It seems like it happens the most when it's about something that's really important to me.
I feel like I'm only just barely starting to understand why. Today our bishop's wife gave a talk about Jesus Christ and His Atonement. She said when answers to her prayers didn't come she felt like the Savior was expecting her to seek him. It was then that she had to work her hardest to come unto him. As she spoke memories and experiences flooded through my mind. I have felt the same call from the Savior to come unto him...as painful as it has been sometimes. This verse of scripture comes to mind, "Come unto me all ye that labor and are heavy laden and I will give you rest."
I've come to realize that it's always been my will against his, what I think my purpose is vs. what He has in mind for me. I've tried to understand His will, but still secretly hoped that his will was what I wanted.
In the last few months he has answered countless prayers and has given me endless peace despite the storm that seems to rage around me. I feel like Peter. It's been his hand that has been there to catch me in my time of need. It was as if receiving answers to these prayers meant that he was still there. He was still watching. He was just quietly teaching me, beckoning me. It's only now that I recognize that his purpose for me maybe different than what I had envisioned...and that's OKAY. I may not always receive answers and that doesn't mean that he has left me alone. It only means that he is expecting me to come unto him.
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